It’s been a little while since I’ve written, I suppose. Mostly because I’ve wanted to write a post on poly all this time and I just can’t figure out how to start it. So here goes.
My dominant is poly. I think I am.
My biggest problems come from having been groomed for monogamy my whole life. I never ever would have imagined myself in a poly relationship, mostly because I didn’t know they really existed outside of those crazy cult people. I (wrongly) assumed that jealousy would be the correct response when you find out your partner loves someone else as well. I thought human beings were meant to be in one relationship at a time. Obviously, all of this has been proven wrong, at least to me.
My relationship with my Alpha is the first romantic relationship I’ve ever had. I love it, I can’t get enough of it, and yes, sometimes (much more rarely now), I have jealousy problems. But I try to keep myself focused on what I do get rather than what I don’t. It helps.
I can feel the capacity to be poly inside me. I don’t need to be monogamous to be happy. The relationship with my Alpha still feels new and exciting. It still is, really. I’ve only been collared for about five months. But I feel that if someone else came into my life, I would be able to handle both relationships and be happy.
TL;DR: It took me a while to come to terms with being queer. It took me a while to come to terms with being poly. But I’m happy here.
“Everything must belong somewhere. I know that now, that’s why I’m staying here.”
(as a side note, I just passed 12,000 hits on this blog. thank you so much for reading, guys!)
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